One Year On...

Date: Sun, 24 Feb 2002 04:12:14 -0800 (PST)
From: "Hitokiri Janelle"
Subject: a prayer for S6
To: "christina koh" , "jh" , "jm" , "mich" , "milly"

hey chris..thats like super damn nice!!!! sugoi man...no words to describe it...lol...anyway..thanks alot...this shall remain my wallpaper for very very long time man....anyway...s6..i really miss all of you very much...just the thought of you all makes me cry...i'm so looking forward to see you all again when we collect our results..but in only a day then afterwards we will be separated for 2 years and more...so well...firstly if you all read this before the results are released...i want to wish you all with all my heart ALL THE BEST!!! ok..close your eyes coz i'm going to pray for you all now...(close one eye only coz if not u cannot read what i'm writing....HHAHHAHAH) yah anyway...

Dear God.. i want to commit the S6 into your hands...trusting that you will bless us in abundance..even more than we could ever think of or imagine..because father we know that you want to bless us and you desire to pour out even a greater measure of your favour and love upon us...so father even as we have honoured you in our own ways even in our different JCs..father i pray that you will honour us even in the receiving of our results...and that whatever results we get father i pray that it will bring glory to your name..and even when we do not get the results we expect...i pray father for ur comfort and encouragement to come strongly upon us that you still love us very very much and even from this experience..father that you will let us grow in faith in you and even everyday you will bring the ups and downs in life to even mould us into the woman of God you want us to be..so father we place our lives into your hands..trusting that you will even have your way in our lives that father for each of everyone of us...you said that you have a plan for us..a plan that will prosper us and not harm us..a plan to give us a future and a hope...so father i pray for every fear of not being able to reach expectations or of even not doing well..to even be gone in the name of Jesus...and father u will replace this fear with ur blessed assurance that you will be always with us till the very end of age...and the assurance that you have a plan already for our lives...so father use our lives in anyway you please...because we just want to do your will...so father even as we will no longer all be in the same JC in time to come..i pray that your holy spirit will follow everyone of my sisters here..wherever they may go..that you give them favour with God and man.... that whenever they feel down depressed or just helpless..father i pray that they will look to you in prayer and comfort...for advise or even just simply a friend to cry to...because you are also our dearest and closest friend...and you know what we are going through the best..and you know us the best too...so father i pray that our lives maybe a testimony to your unfailing and sacrificial love and that we will not stray away from you in our lives...but even grow to know you better and better each coming day...i pray you will not let anyone of us backslide from you even as we move on to a new phrase of life which is full of temptations and sin...i pray that you will protect and keep every single one of us.... so this is all i pray in faith... i pray that you will bring it to completion through Jesus Christ your son,

AMEN!!!!

i hope this prayer will bless you all and even assure you all coz i put my heart and soul into this prayer u know!!! anyway...even as we are not together anymore...just remember that you are NOT ALONE coz you have God...and you have S6!!!

janelle aka hitokiri

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wow, it's been a year already...time truly flies. well, i happened to check my almost defunct yahoo inbox today and came across this mail from my dearest buddy almost exactly 1 year back. reading it again makes me realise how my life has been so empty and meaningless the past year. the authentic "crap" from yester-year vanished, the genuine laughter and smiles with my best buddies had all been buried, and time was valuable no more. perhaps i'd been too indulgent in my PL identity till i couldnt accept the new one that came too soon. seeing the handful of J1s from PL transports me back to my best days - the loose belt, the sportsbra era, the high-socks trend, and not to forget our "Get A Life" show. but whatever the case, i know this PL identity is stuck with me for life. We are always the catalyst of PL!!!

The Way I Am

Whatever..
Dre, just let it run
Aiyyo turn the beat up a little bit
Aiyyo.. this song is for anyone.. fuck it
Just shut up and listen, aiyyo..

I sit back with this pack of Zig Zags and this bag
of this weed it gives me the shit needed to be
the most meanest MC on this -- on this Earth
And since birth I've been cursed with this curse to just curse
And just blurt this berserk and bizarre shit that works
And it sells and it helps in itself to relieve
all this tension dispensin these sentences
Gettin this stress that's been eatin me recently off of this chest
and I rest again peacefully (peacefully)..
but at least have the decency in you
to leave me alone, when you freaks see me out
in the streets when I'm eatin or feedin my daughter
to not come and speak to me (speak to me)..
I don't know you and no,
I don't owe you a mo-therfuck-in thing
I'm not Mr. N'Sync, I'm not what your friends think
I'm not Mr. Friendly, I can be a prick
if you tempt me my tank is on empty (is on empty)..
No patience is in me and if you offend me
I'm liftin you 10 feet (liftin you 10 feet).. in the air
I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy you
Go call you a lawyer, file you a lawsuit
I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe
I'm tired of all you (of all you)..
I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me

And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

Sometimes I just feel like my father, I hate to be bothered
with all of this nonsense it's constant
And, "Oh, it's his lyrical content -
- the song 'Guilty Conscience' has gotten such rotten responses"
And all of this controversy circles me
and it seems like the media immediately
points a finger at me (finger at me)..
So I point one back at 'em, but not the index or pinkie
or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up
when you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up
with the bullshit they pull, cause they full of shit too
When a dude's gettin bullied and shoots up his school
and they blame it on Marilyn (on Marilyn).. and the heroin
Where were the parents at? And look where it's at
Middle America, now it's a tragedy
Now it's so sad to see, an upper class ci-ty
havin this happenin (this happenin)..
then attack Eminem cause I rap this way (rap this way)..
But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire
to burn and it's burnin and I have returned

And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

I'm so sick and tired of bein admired
that I wish that I would just die or get fired
and dropped from my label and stop with the fables
I'm not gonna be able to top on "My Name is.."
And pigeon-holed into some pop-py sensation
to cop me rotation at rock'n'roll stations
And I just do not got the patience (got the patience)..
to deal with these cocky caucasians who think
I'm some wigger who just tries to be black cause I talk
with an accent, and grab on my balls, so they always keep askin
the same fuckin questions (fuckin questions)..
What school did I go to, what hood I grew up in
The why, the who what when, the where, and the how
'til I'm grabbin my hair and I'm tearin it out
cause they drivin me crazy (drivin me crazy).. I can't take it
I'm racin, I'm pacin, I stand and I sit
And I'm thankful for ev-ery fan that I get
But I can't take a SHIT, in the bathroom
without someone standin by it
No I won't sign your autograph
You can call me an asshole I'm glad

Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am