New Year Resolutions

1. Try to be happy
2. Stop idling and procrastinating
3. Be at least a little passionate about history
4. Get fitter and tanner
5. Find back my original ahouic self
6. Study study study harder
7. Survive the coming year

Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad,
Other things just make you swear and curse,
When you're chewing life's gristle,
Don't grumble,
Give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best.
And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
[whistle]
Always look on the light side of life.
[whistle]

If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten,
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps.
Just purse your lips and whistle.
That's the thing.
And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
[whistle]
Always look on the right side of life,
[whistle]

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word.
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin.
Give the audience a grin.
Enjoy it. It's your last chance, anyhow.
So,...

Always look on the bright side of death,
[whistle]
Just before you draw your terminal breath.
[whistle]

Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it.
Life's a laugh and death's a joke it's true.
You'll see it's all a show.
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.
And...

Always look on the bright side of life.
Always look on the right side of life.
[whistle]

Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]
Always look on the bright side of life!
[whistle]

Merry Xmas everyone...it aint too late yet right? Anyway, Xmas this time round wasnt as joyous as i hoped it would be. Presents were...eh...not what i really expected (e.g. an S size pink ladies HangTen tee and its equivalent...) and it seems that this blessed season still cant lift my spirits up much. There sure are lots of reasons why people still love Xmas, but one stinking thought of going back to school one week later simply puts me off. Bleah. Spoils the entire mood already, doesnt it?

Meanwhile, i had a rather enlightening session this afternoon. Was visiting my dad's friend and he truly inspired me all the more to go to Sydney (UNSW). His youngest daughter who recently graduated was surprisingly also from UNSW, and his elder daughter is also about to pursue her Masters there come February. They related their personal experiences studying abroad and now im very determined to go ahead with my plans. However, the bad news is that students like us now have to wait till we get back our A level results before we can apply. Unlike that uncle's youngest daughter who was fortunate enough to be the last batch of local students who could apply using their prelim results; we unlucky people can now only officially start the next year after we get back our A level results (because the term over there begins in Jan/Feb)...So i guess i'd find a temporary job during the 1 year break so as to earn a substantial amount before going over - that is if i can really make it through 2003.

Of course, there were other aspects which they related during the 2-hour long conversation, so jm, maybe one day we could sit down and seriously discuss whatever information we have eh?

Stranded.

My method of suicide: Asphyxiation.



YOU WOULD ASPHYXIATE YOURSELF. you're smart enough to realize that death isn't something to be toyed with, but you still have the occasional suicidal impluse or desire. you are extremely cautious where it comes to self-mutilation, self-abuse, and substance abuse. if you were going to commit suicide, you'd want it to be as painless as possible.

how would you commit suicide?

SATISFIED IN SEATTLE: FLO & ZACH WIN THE AMAZING RACE!

After thousands of miles, and circling the globe, the final 3 Teams, brothers Ken & Gerard, married parents Teri & Ian and friends Flo & Zach raced with every ounce of energy they could muster from Vietnam across the Pacific Ocean to the Finish Line in the United States. A desperate car race through Seattle, Washington, and a sprint through Gas Works Park found the Teams giving it their all in a bid for first place. In the end, Flo & Zach were able to overcome all the difficulties they had faced in the past, and worked together to pull out an incredible first place finish and the million-dollar prize.

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My Own Prison

Im no longer the person i used to be. My life seems to have undergone a drastic change. Im only living in a cold, dark world of my own and everything around me is virtual. I can see them, but once i start to reach out for them, my hand only grasps the chilly air. I hear voices yelling at me, screaming in my ear, controlling me...I dont know who i am anymore. Although i seem to be surviving in a perfectly humane environment, it is but just a false hope. My true presence isnt felt, even by myself. My existance, my identity, my life - nothing is the same anymore. I cant seem to go back, there isnt a way out at all. Im locked up in my own prison forever. Is this what age and society brings? An artificial surrounding, sterile and loveless. All that's embracing me are vague images of my so-called life. Im only living a day at a time, doing what im instructed, trying to stay fit in world where everyone's just a stranger. I dont know what im truly living for - others perhaps. Or maybe its a punishment for me to live on. Every day my mind's just straying, wondering who i really am. It's all so unfamiliar, so distant and so virtual. The other world shouldnt be like this at all. If only i could escape from this nightmare...a nightmare i can never wake up from...

Psychological Persuasion

I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay I must do my history essay

Zzz.....

Sigh. After a week of recuperation, it's time again for me to continue my history assignment. I've spent this entire month of vacation doing nothing but history while my econs and gp homework are still lying there waiting patiently for me. And it's already mid-december. Shucks. I so wish to kick some ass. Particularly Andrew Lim's.

Im feeling kinda lackadaisical lately. That's why i haven't been updating this regularly. Let's wait till i fully recover then i'll probably be in a better mood to crap. Meanwhile, im busy indulging in the MVP vcd and drooling over Gao Xing and Taizi, not to forget watching those really slick moves...They certainly make my life much sweeter.

Sickly Cow in Sheep's Clothing

This is so darn annoying. Why the blardy heck am i catching the flu now?! Arghh...and i dont even have a single idea how i got it. Great. The worse thing is, I cant get out of my house!!! Jinghui smsed me yesterday night to ask if im free to join them (jh, jx & meely) today for a short jalan jalan somewhere and dinner after that. I was hoping my sore throat would get better today so i could have at least 1 enjoyable day in december, but looks like im destined to suffer my entire life. Grrr. My life simply sucks. But wait, maybe i could still go out. No more sore throat but i doubt a runny nose would ruin everything right? I have to get X'mas presents! Ooh, i just love this X'mas spirit!

Virus Attack

Im having a terrible sore throat now and im going back to bed. Hopefully the flu doesnt spread. I hate falling ill during the hols. Grr...

Just returned home from Malacca in the evening. I miss my pc soooo much! It was hell not having a comp around. Sigh. Fortunately we were just there over the weekend. Well as usual, we've covered the state a million times there wasnt anything new and exciting awaiting us. Only came back with the typical foodstuff, some household products and that's about it. Nothing much to buy or do anyway. Still didnt manage to get a life.

Frankly, i've been feeling very emotional the past couple of weeks. My extreme mood swings are tearing me apart. And im totally clueless about the cause(s) of it. I suppose i need some professional psychiatric treatment. Hey jm, why dont you study psychiatry instead?

Personality Disorder Test

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

Bad Review - 2 out of 5 stars

Meteor Garden 2 is absolutely awful. It's a far cry from the first series. No more F4, it's only F1 + 2. Yep, the entire serial is only revolved round DMS and Michelle Saram plus Shancai. There are some occasional pop-ups by the other F3 but unless you're a die-hard Jerry Yen fan, I suggest nobody buys the vcd. Catching it on tv later on is already giving the show enough credit. Yes, it's that bad.

So now we finally realise why there's a sudden upsurge of Taiwanese Ou Xiang Ju generated wholesale from Jap mangas. Their scriptwriters are truly failing in their job. The plot is saturated and restricted. Sigh. Why dont they just let F4 remain as history instead of cashing in on them. Trying hard to pacify the local audience obviously doesnt work judging from all complaints from fans about Michelle Saram. Tsk tsk tsk. Perhaps they ought to learn from their fellow Jap or Korean counterparts.

Bleah. SAT's on Saturday. Cant wait for it to be over. Purely a waste of time. Grr. Worse, of all days, they just had to pick a Saturday to do it. Brainless fools these people are. Such a total mood spoiler. If they think that it's a "good" ooportunity for us to meet up with our pals during this break, they're absolutely wrong. 9 out of 12 months is already more than enough and i dont feel the need to wear that plastic mask even during this "vacation".

I cant understand myself at all. They're We're supposed to have a "class" outing tomorrow but when they asked me last week, my immediate reaction was to produce some valid excuse so that i could escape from it. Am i eccentric or simply behaving my ordinary self? It's like my first instinct is to turn down any offer to "hang out" with the class. I've begun to detest such so-called "class" outings. Like helloooo, is exploring all the boutiques along Orchard Road considered a "class" outing? All i know is that it's an impossible task for me to conform to such acts. Gosh, even in my dreams would i never step into Miss Sell-Fridge (is that how it's spelt? Hahah...) or...or....fine, that's the only boutique i know (like duh). Do i look like some spag-strap freak or bell-bots fanatic? My apologies gals, you think too highly of me.

Through It All

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all